Words From a Frozen Mind

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Busy little bee

Classes have started at UAF about a week ago, at this time of the semester it is a never ending ordeal. When I think that I have gotten all caught up with my reading and writing, I turn around and four more chapters need to be read by tomorrow and a paper is do in two days. Fun, fun, fun. Well, I can say that this semester will be more interesting then last.

Monday, January 16, 2006

Dave

Dave, just because he is so damn cute

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Alaska in others eyes

Globe Tracker a traveling show, I that I watch on PBS, had a show on Alaska. The show only looked at small town or villages, no cities like Fairbanks or A-town. But I did see some miss editing. The host was talking about Homer, and the cost of out fitting yourself from the cold. It was filmed in the summer. The video that went with the narration didn’t match. He was talking about being in Homer, but he entered Big Ray’s in down town Fairbanks. There is no Big Ray’s in Homer.

Maybe because I live here, but the show made Alaska to be this wild untamed world, over run with wild life and trees, but hay, we do have the largest Wal-Mart. Well, that is not really something to brag about.

It’s funny how others see Alaska. To me it is just the same as if I lived in another state. We have all the modern convenience, and not all of us live in a cabin with no water, and we don’t have to go out and shoot our dinner. If I had to that I would be thin.

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Quote

“How can anyone eat sushi, to me it’s like eating bait.”
Mom as we drove by Fairbanks only sushi restaurant.

Friday, January 13, 2006

Friday the 13

I should have listened to my horoscope; it told me that I should think before I talk. I got in a big argument with my new boss. He is or was a friend before he became my boss. It was a very vocal and loud argument. My other co-worker could hear the whole thing through the lucked door. I do not know if it is going to work out. Can a friend be your boss? If he would only have stop talk when I said ok let’s dope it, but he wouldn’t let it go. After the argument I spent 10 minutes in the restroom crying. I really hate this job.

Then after work I went up to the U to get my book. I found out that I lost my financial aid. I lost it even though I still have a GPA above 2.0. How I have to go threw the appeal process. I can’t think how I’m going to fix this. If the appeal is not approved I’m going to have to put things off that I wanted to do this year.

This is a very bad Friday 13th.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

WHEN IT IS COLD AND DARK

Had a meeting up at the U, as I was wanted, I read the Sun Star, the University’s weekly News paper. It must have been a slow news week up at the University. But there was a story by Tav Ammu that brought me back to a time that I lived in the dorms.
Cold weather pleasure: Sex in the dorms
As students spend less time outside and more time indoors huddled under the covers, the important subject on students' minds (other than classes) becomes sex. However, sex in the dorms can be a tricky, and sometimes sticky, matter. There are many variables to take into account: roommates, the desk attendants, thin walls and nosy neighbors.
From my room I heard three different people having sex," said James Smith, a sophomore studying justice. "Only one was a neighbor."
Although some may find it discourteous and even rude, the general consensus is amusement.

"It's just funny," Smith said.

Allison Whitten, a sophomore studying history and linguistics, had a story about walking in on her roommate having sex. "The door was locked, so I knocked. I didn't hear anything so I carded in, Whitten said. "There's my roommate with her boyfriend, I did the next logical thing. I turned on the lights and took pictures. The moral of the story is use the deadbolt."

"We don't have a code, we just lock the door, said Kathryn Brownlee, a junior studying education. “If we're already in the room and giving the other (roommate) signs to get out, you know it's busy time."

"I walked in on some people being passionate, not in the confines of their assigned room, but in the laundry room, as well as the kitchen," said Pat Lake. "It's not something to get angry about, I think it's hilarious." Meredith Cameron had a similar experience: “I just closed the door and laughed about it."

All I have to say is when you are a student and broke, you can if some unusual and inventive places to do the deed. It happens all the time so get use to it and what are you going to anyway, it’s cold and dark all the time.
Tav’s whole story is here http://www.uaf.edu/sunstar/archives/20051213/coldsex.htm

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Doomed From the Start

I’m trying to do more writing, so I thought I would share this little story. Yes, this is a true story and it is my story.


Doomed From the Start

I should have known that going to Vancouver was doomed from the start. The problem all started with a fight with my boyfriend. My roommate, Carl, came home with his friend, Rod, ten minutes after the fight. As they entered the apartment, I said, “I have to get out. I want a drink!” Carl asked why, and I explained. Carl and Rod agreed. But, where to go? Rod is only twenty, so it was Vancouver Canada. I did not want to take my car. Rod volunteered his car and Carl, Rod and I were off. It was about 9 p.m.

Since we were living in Seattle at the time this made Vancouver a two-hour drive. The drive was uneventful until 2 miles from the border. When Rod revealed that he did not have insurance or a driver’s license, Carl and I began to yell at him things that will remain unsaid. I told him to pull over, so I could drive into Canada. We had no problem getting in Canada even though Rod had no driver’s license, I was driving a car that was not mine, and Carl had no identification at all. All the border guards asked us is how much money we had: $250 (200 was for my half of the rent) and an expired credit card. However, I did not reveal that part.

We arrived in Vancouver, and couldn’t find a bar. We drove around asking anyone that was on the street if they know where a good bar was, but no luck. We found a bar, but it was 15 minutes before the last call, so we slammed down a drink or two, before the DJ call out last call. I danced with a weird guy, which only had one thing on his mind. Carl and Rod just stood to the side and laughed, as the guy made so kind of spasmodic moves towards me. By this time I decided it was time to head home. At about 3 a.m.

After stopping for gas, and something to eat because Rod only weighted only 99 pounds and he downed about 3 double White Russians in about 20 minutes. We asking directions to the border, by this time we had about five dollars left, getting back into the U.S. was not as easy as getting out. At the border I was driving, Carl was in the front passenger seat, and Rod had passed out in the back seat. As we pulled up to the border officer in a little tollbooth, he asked our names. Carl and I told him but we could not remember Rod’s last name. Therefore, we woke Rod up. Rod was not happy to be waked up and the boarder guard was not happy either. We were told to pull over and go into the building. The officer behind the desk was even less happy to see us either. This happened at about five o’clock in the morning.

The officer asked to see our IDs. Rod and I showed him ours, but Carl did not have one. When Carl told the officer that, he started asking Carl questions. “Where do you live?” “When is your birthday?” “What is your social security number?” Carl gave him the information and then asked to go to the restroom; I guess that his bladder was full from all of 15 minutes of drinking. The man behind the desk said, “No, you all sit down and don’t move.” We sat down and joked with Carl that were would have to forward his mail, and tell his mom that he had to start a new life in Canada. The officer came back after looking up something on the computer and said we could go. Carl screamed were the restroom!! As the officer pointed the way and Carl took off running to the restroom and we were on the road again. Rod fell back asleep. Carl vowed that he was never going to Canada again.

About an hour and half from Seattle, the car started making a knocking noise. Therefore, we pulled over at the next gas station. I know little about cars and Carl and Rod less than I did. I checked the water and it was a brown color. I asked Rod, “When was the last time he had his car checked out?” “I haven’t,” he said. I checked the oil. When I pulled out the dipstick, it was rusty and as I looked down the rusty dipstick there was a hard tar ball on the end. I started yelling, “What kind of person has a car with no oil? Don’t you know you have to have oil?” Rod replied, “I don’t know how to check my oil.” I pulled out the stick and put it in his face. “Here is how!” With our last five dollars, I bought 2 quarts of oil and put them in the car. We had no more money and started home again.

The car was running hot. I often had to stop and let the car cool off before continuing. About 45 minutes from Seattle as we were going up a hill, the car made a loud boom. Steam and smoke came from the engine. Rod jumped up from the back seat. I was barely able to pull off the road. Cars going by at 50 and 60 miles per hour made the car shake. Carl got out to look at the engine. It was still dark, and there was no light under the hood. Carl asked if Rod had a flashlight. Rod handed Carl a small little tiny squeeze light (like that was going to help). Carl got back in the car and we all turned on each other yelling and swearing. It was like a plot out of a B movie… young adults dead in their car on side of the highway. We started to hitchhike, but no one would pick us up. To top it off, it started to rain. As the sun rose, we could see a telephone down a side road. I told the boys that I would call my parents, find a Western Union and, I would get us out of this mess, even though it was my fight that got us here. Halfway to the telephone, a police officer drove up and asked if that was our car back down the highway.

I asked if there was a Western Union around here. He said that yes there was and he would take us after he looked at the car. He put all three of us in the back of his police car. Let me tell you, you do not want to be in the back seat of a police car with two other people. Rod’s bony hip was poking me. Carl was complaining and telling me to move over. My toes were pushed under the metal fencing that separates the front from the back. It made an ugly situation uglier. Back at our car the officer looked at the car and saw my five-dollars of oil running down the highway. When the officer came back to open his door, it was locked and the keys were in the ignition. My heart sank. I was wet, my toes were being smashed, and Rod’s bony ass was poking me. Now I am locked in a car with no way out. Fortunately, the window was down far enough for the officer to reach into the car and unlock his door.

The officer took us to the bus station where there was a Western Union. However, the station was closed until 10:30 a.m. It was only 8 a.m. I called my dad. He wired me some money. As we waited, Rod decided he was not going to wait any more and called an aunt of his to ask if she would come pick us up. She agreed but it would be a while. When the bus station opened, she had not arrived. Western Union gave me my money, and I bought bus tickets. Rod said he was going to wait for his aunt. Carl and I were not going to wait. We boarded the bus-leaving Rod behind. His aunt did not show up until 4 p.m. Rod did not talk to Carl or me for two weeks, and he never talked about the trip to Vancouver.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

The list for 06

Last year didn’t end on a high note. I have been thinking about my life and things I have not gotten done or things I would like to change in my life. Some are the some as other people, but if I write them down, maybe get them done.
06 to do list
  • Take care of my skin
  • Exercise more
  • Stop smoking
  • Stop been so shy, around people
  • Not getting up-set with people
  • Do not be a afraid to do things by myself
  • Find something that I can get excited about
  • Volunteer more of my time
  • Buy a Nikon d 70’s
  • Take my camera with all the time
  • Start a photo blog
  • Learn about web design
  • Write more (for my blog and for myself)
  • Learn a new word a week and learn now to spell it correctly
  • Read more books
  • Stay focus on my school work
  • Find a major and sticking to it
  • Do more hiking
  • Get a dog

Things I want to do before I die

not in any particular order

  • Buy a sport car
  • Learn to ride a motor bike
  • Take a trip across Europe on a motor bike
  • Take a trip to Europe on a bike
  • See my friends in Czech
  • Learn French
  • Take a back road trip across the US
  • Sky drive once
  • Bungee jumping
  • Repel down a cliff again
  • Write a novel
  • Get a story published in a newspaper or magazine
  • Get a photo published in a newspaper or magazine
  • Get a book published of photo or a novel
  • Find a job that I love
  • Join the peace corp
  • Go to Africa
  • Work with Cheetahs in Africa
  • Get my TEFL certification so I can teach people to speak English
  • Fall deeply in love
  • Have a child
  • Get married
  • Buy a cabin (with water)
  • Learn to play the guitar


Well, That is all I can come up with, I know there is more, but right now, it is a good list.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Called off from work today

My back is killing me! I should be uses to it, since I fell down a flight of stairs about 7 years ago, and couldn’t walk from three days. But I haven’t had any problem in years. It’s ok if I do not move; so I moved my easy chair over to the computer and grabbed some of my CD from the bottom shelf, with a lot of cursing. That may have not have been a good idea, but I’m bored!!!! I have come up with some new combinations of curs words.

But what is pissing me off is that my CD player is skipping; now I have to play it on the computer and the sound isn’t as good, as the player. How can you listen to Billy Bragg, The Bravery, Michael Buble’ and Cracker, with out it being in stereo, it is just wrong. One good thing I found out is that Bravery has two videos on their CD. Cracker will be here at the Blue Loon on Feb 10th. I hope to god that I can go.

On a good note, I found an old bottle of Codeine, but there is only one pill left. I’m going to horde it, tell I really need it. Maybe I will use the magic pill to clean my house or to go get some food. The house isn’t that bad, but I have not bought any food for about a month. Think God that I have friends that take pity on this single gal and invite me to go out to dinner. I do have to say that sometime I feel like Bridget Jones, the only single, surrounded by couples. Why is it that some couples look at you like you have three heads when you are single, like there is something wrong with you?

As i said; there is nothing to eat in this house, yes people say that when then they have food, but taking inventory of my fridge, there is nothing to eat. I just have to go shopping, but my back is giving me too much pain.

The inventory: Pilsner Urquell beer, Smart Balance butter, 10 grapes, Spinach dip (that I bought around Christmas) Ketchup, Mayonnaise, and something in a bowl that I can’t remember what it is. Don’t believe me look. I did say I was BORED!




I can’t think of any recipes with ingredients that I have on hand, so if you have any ideas let me know. This three headed single gal needs a nap, maybe that will make me feel better.

Monday, January 02, 2006

disregarded the posting below

I have come to realizes that everything happen for a reason. People come in and out your life for many things. Some come in your life to help or inspire you, and other come to get help and inspiration for you. There are some that inspire you and they don’t even know it. Some times you are inspiration. And just like that, there is no need for you after they get what they need. They may do this subconsciously or not. Therefore, there is no reason to get up set over thing that are going to happen. I knew in my gut from the start that it was going to happen, but I didn’t listen, so I have no one to blame but myself. I’m not going to name, names or give details, because they may or may not read my blog. So disregarded the posting below, I’m going to chock it up to a moment of temporary insanity. It was just the straw that broke the camels back; I shouldn’t have gotten so up set. Thanks to all, I appreciated the comments.